funereal farceur

smile like u mean it

Saturday, October 20, 2007

i hate this video.
it somehow reminds me of me
i used to go all da way for my ex
cant quite remember wat was it dat she needed me to do
but after it all, she said she wants to meet her guy instead
oh well.
i was on a date or with my friends at dat time
and i just left them to meet her
but i ended up being disappointed
it was indeed stupid
but seriously, i cant explain why i do da things i do
mayb its like wat they always say,
'Love is blind'.
everyone has most probably had their heart broken before
of me, it had been broken twice
the feelin of it just makes u wanna kill urself inside
to just break down n cry till u haf no tears left,
u keep tellin urself,
'why did i even try to fall in love agn?'
'why did i believe whatever she said?'
yet... there is no room for regrets
the memories were sweet and i'll keep them for sure
i'm just drownin in my sorrow with songs
oh izzie.. i somehow need u here right now
only u noe me best.
y did u choose to leave?
i do think of u at times,
my parents say they saw u on ur bike everytime when u go off from work,
ur uncle keeps tellin me abt ur poor mum n dad,
frens keep askin me where u've gone...
i just dun haf da answers to all dat u noe
i guess nuthin really last forever huh,
no matter how much u meant it

i never really told anyone
but i went for a surgery yesterday
while i was on da surgery table with da lights over my head
my mind thought about a lot of things
i somehow felt like i was in one of da movies,
where they see da light and they tot they were gg to die
anyways, so the doctor dint put me to slp
he just numbed some parts of me
covered my face so i couldnt c wat was happenin
but i could still hear and know what he was doin to me
i felt so scared.
gosh. i wish i could die at that point of time
so as i was sayin, i tot abt alot of things before da surgery
since everyone had their heart broken before,
of course they wouldnt wanna get into a serious relationship
so i find myself a dumb fuck cause i'm still here loyal and true when there isnt such a thing
so wat if ur attached with 2 or 3 gfs, ur still considered available and wanted
it all falls into place
its true to a certain extent
they all want the bad boy image kinda lover
i dunnoe when i will open up my heart again
but she's one lucky biatch..
the best babe won, though its not abt winnin
everyone has access to my blog
so if ur name begins with a T and ur readin this
congrats man.. she loves u more.
i decided to give up on her
though it hurts me, i just want her to be happy
dun worry abt me, i will survive
i'll be happy as long as ur happy
that is a promise.

Well ur the closest thing I have
To bring up in a conversation
About a love that didnt last
But I could never call you mine
Cause I could never call myself yours
And if we were really meant to be
Well then we justify destiny
Its not that our love died
Just never really bloomed

drizzle on me
1:39 PM

i'm done tryin.