funereal farceur

abracadabra

Thursday, August 23, 2007

wow..
ur a marvellous story teller, u noe dat
the situation has been gettin out of hand lately
so right here, right now
i'm going to say it all
u dun haf to believe a single word i say
because afterall its just a blog
who cares anyways huh...
its my feelings not yours
no more beating ard the bush
no more mama dramas
i just had to write it in my blog.
i dunnoe of any other ways to release my anger,
as i dun cut myself.

i must admit
my relationship with addne has been on da rocks
due to the clashes of our work schedule
and also i blame it all on camp life
so as the story goes...
it was ard march or april
when i became a probational officer
everything went well
till u told me u began failing ur exams and all
claiming that ur dad began strict with u
confiscated ur phone and gave u a curfew
it dint bother u before
so i dint know y it bothered u then
so it began..
things started to get weird...
u started sharing with me events
on certain people who likes u
and till what extent they would do to get u
i really appreciate u telling it all
of course u'd be flattered
i know i would
Tina, Nurul, Jamilah, George, Sarah
a list of few who were involved...
so i started earning my real bucks
u hinted on stuff u wanted to get
i wanted to pamper u
so we ended up shopping for u
it dint matter at that time as i was blinded by love
matters got worse..
lets just say u'd only meet me at that time of the month
once u got what u wanted
u'd just go MIA for awhile
though u do say that u love and miss me alot
i felt it, i really did
so i believed it
friends told me otherwise
yet i decided to trust u
whenever i msged u at work, u'd reply later than usual
whenever i called u at work, u'd always not pick up
still somehow its strange when my friends called u and u picked it up in an instant
my tots did run wild
but i still trusted u
there was this incident however
u told me that this working colleague of urs, Tina, liked u
she dint like u being with me
so she restricted u from calling me and msgin me when ur at work with her
so i was like, 'what the fuck!'
u were mine at that point in time, not hers
oh well.
it was ur decision, not mine
but there is one thing abt u that i dun like
u always tell me that u wanted to make everybody happy
i still dun get what u meant by that
so what ur tryin to say is that...
if someone likes u but u dun like dem but in order for them to be happy, u'd still go for them.
is that what u meant?
i am ur gf.
u r supposed to make me happy.
so y does it matter for others who like u to be happy with u?
mayb ur still young.
u still wanna flirt ard.
i dun blame u.
its ur age and nature.
u haven reached the maturity level yet.
well, i bet u dun even noe what is the meaning of Love.
to u its just a 4-letter word which means the same as Game.
i feel sorry for u cuz u haven experience it
it could haf been a beautiful feeling
if only u would haf been more honest with me.

coming back to this date
22nd, yday was supposed to meant something
anyways, siti bon got a job opening
i thought u might be interested
so i forwarded u her msg
in less than a min,
u called me asking for her no.
dats all.
no 'how are u' or 'i miss u'.. nothing
so all of u went for the job thingy
u met ruud and pearle there
u went for the job with Tina
ruud wondered abt us so she asked if ur still with me
u denied!
u said that u broke up with me abt 6 months ago
excuse me..
if u were to read Lil' Miss Perfect Addne's blog
she said that i broke up with her on aug 18
so what did she meant by that
just because Tina was there with her, she wanted to make it look like as if she wasnt with me
so i can assume that u haf been with Tina for abt 6 mths?
hey! congrats!
i had to noe from someone else
oh. and pls dear addne, dun ruin my friend's relationship with her gf even though she's in a long-distance relationship.
dun make my friend's life miserable pls.
by the way, i went over to ur place ard midnight today
i wanted to take back my phone
i dint want to take it back initially
but it took me 2 mths to save to get u da damn thing
i deserve to haf it back
ur brother said u werent at home
plus ur room was dark
that's totally what i wanted to know.
just for ur info.
though she said she broke up with me 6 mths ago,
she calls me up every morning and afternoon when she's at work
just wanted to talk things out with me
yet every night when i wanted to reach her, she's outta reach.
i did receive a few msges at night saying to stop contacting her
when i msged her further, she would reply that she's making love and to stop disturbin her
how would u feel?
of course i was fucken mad.
she kept rejecting my calls.
but as soon as morning comes, she'd call me up when she's at work
acting as if nothing's happened
she even said that whoever msged me the previous night wasnt her
so what do u expect me to believe?
u want to lie some more?

i tell u man..
ur life is so full of lies and deceit
i just hope that u would haf a safe journey in life
if u keep doing this to everyone who likes u,
and one of them has a bad temper
u could end up being beaten alive
i noe of a few couples like that
its sad i tell u, but its fate
what goes around, comes around
dun think everyone is like me
i may never ever lay my hands on u
but u noe my heart is breaking and disintegrating into pieces slowly
i have never regretted being with u
the first mth when i was with u was wonderful
even when i was in camp,
we would never fail to meet up every weekend
though it was only for awhile, it made up for the times i was in camp
thinking abt those moments can make me cry
but no matter what, life still goes on and love haf to move on
i'm sorry, i cannot be with u anymore
after all that has happened, once bitten twice shy
u dun haf to know the contents of my heart
but i really wish u all the best in life and love.
thanks for the memories.

Dimple Prince

drizzle on me
2:32 AM

i'm done tryin.