funereal farceur

Monday, August 08, 2005

Everybody's tellin me to cut ma hair
is it really botherin u guys?
i mean, straight haired ppl wants permed hair
whereas wavy to lovely curls ppl wants straight hair
wat a weird fascination

u noe, everyone is tryin so hard to find luv
luv found me but i'm not happy
with da hot looks and hot bod, its juz not enuf
it needs to come wit attitude, character and style
no doubt i like u but sorry dere's no luv
ma like for u fades away as i got to noe more of u
its not dat i've changed ma mind
its juz not wat i want
its true i'm fickled but dats not da reason for it
'dun intend to hurt u or intend to get hurt'
dats wat it has been all abt
even if i keep u cuz of ur looks, i wont b satisfied
a piece is missin from dat face
think dats juz wat life's abt
'gud things only happen once'
-and y da hell is ma itunes playin all da jiwang songs, dis is juz not da time-
either u savour it or its gone from u foreva
i'm a fortunate bastard cuz unlike sum of ma frenz, dey r tryin so hard to find luv
instead it found me but i dun want it
stupid and idiotic as i can b
i haf da chance to luv agn but i dint take it
i dint even take da one wit da beautiful smile
actually, its all a matter of time and choice
its easy to haf luv if u devote ur time to it
devotion, obsession and passion
it works well together
i've felt luv and i'm thankful for dat
mayb ma heart is tired of luv and hatred
i cant explain da way i feel now
no, i cant
i might regret ma honest final decision
no turnin back, no runnin back
all's left is to b happy and not makin da same mistakes
to both lyanas.. sorry u had to take dat shit from me
u guys came at da wrong time, i guz
i would haf given u ma all.. i noe i would
mayb i'm comparin but i cant help it
i hate u for doin dis to me but i'll luv u still
its all a luv-hate situation
perhaps, time is wat i need, all dat i eva need
to get u off ma mind, completely erased
but noein deep inside, memories will sumhow surfaced
and wit u havin to haunt me wit ur ghost so real
'still leavin wit da ghost of u and me'
make me happy, make me real
clear da emptiness look from ma face
sumhow, sumwhere, i will be
till dat dae comes to set me free
juz let me live ma life, able to make ma parents see
how successful and satisfied, i can be

[ Dishwalla - Countin blue cars ]
dis song is nice..
i finally took a notice of it
man, runni.. how u've grown
i luv hangin out wit u and ur crappy humorous ways
we both can b crap sumtimes
but its all fun, i enjoyed it though
better den juz bein quiet and starin at each others eyes
now dat u noe how hard rock is like
i dun think u eva wanna go dere agn
dat place brings back memories, with da ppl and all
gosh, wat am i teachin ma fren.. haha.. dat was da first and da last aight
bet u'd had fun wit her if only u werent too tired
damn.. all's wasted, but dere's always next time =)
feel like i'm wastin ma life away.. am i?
sumtimes, juz feel like cryin for no reason but da tears wont come out
its all dried up and harden inside
i cant even do sumthin simple like dat.. wat da hell..
like wat nic said..
'ever wonder wat we're here for?'
well, i'm wonderin now....

drizzle on me
6:40 AM

i'm done tryin.